I'm having trouble coming up with a topic for this week's blog post. My head is a little bit all over the place, and I can't seem to categorize my thoughts enough to order them in any particular way. One of the biggest things that keeps percolating is news that we've recently begun to share more widely; we're expecting a new addition to our family in November! Emily is going to be a big sister, and though she really isn't too engaged with the idea yet, Eric and I are rather excited. And, truth be told, also a little terrified of having two small children! And so, this week I'll share five random thoughts about being pregnant the second time around:
1. Why didn't anyone tell me that I would start to look pregnant the second the pregnancy test showed a positive result? Seriously, I'm almost 12 weeks along, and already, my jeans are a little snug. I don't really understand this, as I haven't actually gained any weight yet, but there it is. I seem to recall making it at least another month the first time around before I even began to think about maternity clothes.
2. I forgot how rude people can be when you're pregnant. I had one person, who shall remain anonymous, make the following comment to me after I told this individual that I was expecting: "you know, I thought you were looking a little plump". I mean, really, in what context is that an acceptable comment to make?!
3. My unwanted pregnancy symptoms - tiredness and nauseousness - have been much worse this time around. I've felt sick off and on all day long, suffered a rather violent stomach virus in the middle of it, and am only just starting to feel like my normal self. I've also found myself falling asleep on the couch shortly after Emily is in bed for the night on several occasions, and once I laid down on the couch in the middle of the day, while Emily was playing, and was woken up by her several minutes later. That was a little unnerving!
4. I have been very disappointed that coffee has been completely unappealing to me. For my birthday recently, I was given a Keurig single-cup brew coffee maker (thanks mom!). I used it daily for about two weeks, and since then, haven't been able to stomach the thought (or the smell) of a cup of coffee. I'm truly hoping that changes soon.
5. I'm going to know this baby's birthday way before he or she is born. I've chosen to schedule another c-section, a decision supported by my doctor 100%, and she informed me yesterday that she can schedule this anytime after 20 weeks. She gave me a due date of November 24th, but said they like to do as few surgeries as possible in the days before Thanksgiving, so I will likely deliver on the 18th or 19th of November. It will be a completely different feeling to know exactly how much time is left with this pregnancy! Of course, the little one could always come early and surprise us. Early isn't bad.
In all seriousness though, despite the complaints, I know just how blessed we are to be pregnant and almost through the first trimester. It's been a more turbulent ride this time around, fraught with more worries and panicky moments about what could still go wrong, but God is good all the time, and we're thrilled to start a new adventure together as a family.